Memories…

The more one tries to deconstruct the psyche of mankind, the more one is likely to get confused. Our brain is like a maze with myriad streets, lanes and by-lanes. We try to analyse it, decode it, try to present it in a form that is best suited to us. But in reality all we end up doing is exposing ourselves to a lot more questions than we can actually handle. It like a fabric where our thoughts have been intricately woven, too minute for us to see, to complex for us to understand. Ever since man has set foot on this planet, he has been trying to unravel the mysteries; trying to get to the core of the onion by peeling its layers one by one. Scientists and astronauts have left no stones unturned to convert the entire universe into a question and answer guide wherein each phenomenon occurring from the conception of a child to his death should be explained. Precisely. Lucidly. Unambiguously. However when it comes to the human brain, the very object that is instrumental in helping us find answers to all our questions, I am afraid to say that our scientists have failed miserably. It is a lot more easier to sit in a spacecraft and go on an alien hunt in the outer space than to delve into the human mind, swim in a sea of thoughts, look for the hidden treasure and then emerge victorious.

If the human brain were so simple that we could understand it, we would be so simple that we couldn’t. ~ Emerson M. Pugh

I am no psychiatrist but these questions visit me from time to time, like guests, and force me to think. Of late I have been thinking a lot about memories. What are they? Why do we have them? Why do some memories follow us everywhere like our shadow while others slip away from our mind like sand grains from a clenched fist? How does the same mind conceive the darkest and the most pleasurable thoughts, both at the same time? I guess these are questions that can’t be answered.

My memories and I have a very special relationship. We nurture each other. In each other’s company we revive, rejoice. They are like precious gemstones that are embedded in my mind; like messengers from the past who ensure that important things are not forgotten. They are my companions during boring meetings and sleepless nights.

Every man’s memory is his private literature.  ~Aldous Huxle

There are certain things about memories I cannot explain. Why are there certain memories that are imprinted in my mind in indelible ink. They cannot be erased. I know that for sure. And these are not always important things. Tiny, insignificant fragments of my life – the image of my mother preparing breakfast for me, the moment when my father castigated me for breaking my brother’s toys, the day when I bit my cousin. These are not very special occurrences. My mother prepares breakfast for me every day and I have broken my brother’s toys on several occasions. However only a few of these occasions have been allotted a place in my mind. The rest have been conveniently discarded.

Memory is a child walking along a seashore. You never can tell what small pebble it will pick up and store away among its treasured things.  ~Pierce Harris, Atlanta Journal

We have always taken our memories for granted. They have always been there with us be it rain or sunshine. It is money, power, property that we worry about. What will happen if I lose my job? What will happen if I don’t earn enough money to lead a good life? How often do we think of a scenario when our memories just fly away. Like birds that have been freed from their cage. What would follow after that? Null? Void? Our inevitable end? Just think about it.

Everybody needs his memories.  They keep the wolf of insignificance from the door.  ~Saul Bellow

Needless to say that our mind is a powerful instrument and we often make the mistake of underestimating its potential. It can take us to places where we have not been before. It can make  us ecstatic and  also drive us insane. It can inflict pain and also act as a healer. It can make us life and also force us to die. Each and every action that we take has its roots in our mind. Each and every breath that we breathe to live originates from here, each and every dream that we dream resides over here. Someone has rightly said “It’s all in the mind” And is our memory that ensures that our life is lived; that dreams are realized.

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2 responses to “Memories…”

  1. Bikram says :

    Hmmm true memories .. well since i left home and came aborad i have realised that I live a lot in my memories of what or how it was …

    and true we spend so much time worrying about whats gonna happen this and that and other worldly stufff.. but we sometimes forget what we had…

    lovely article 🙂

    Bikram’s

    • blog owner says :

      Thank you bikram for both liking the article and being the first person to comment on my blog…. Its true that we spend so much time worrying about the future that very often we forget about what we have…

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